Yesterday, my mom told me she had a surprise for me. I was hoping it was that we would be staying in Utah.....but no. Her suprise was more of a SHOCK to me than a surprise. She told me she is getting remarried. I was in shock when I heard that. I thought how could she meet someone that soon. Anyway, she met an architect from Seattle and he asked her to marry him and she said yes. I don't know what to think. She told me that he has a large house on some island near seattle. She said that there is a guest house next to the house and that Jon (his name is Jon) said that if I wanted I could have the whole guest house for myself. The first thing I thought was that he thinks of me as the pet daughter that he can put outside in the dog house to get me out of the way. I am really feeling kind of depressed today. I have a father who is not interested in me, now this.
I wasn't feeling like running today, but I went to the fitness center anyway. Mr. Teo could tell that something was wrong. I told him what happened. He talked with me about it for a while. He told me to try and think about it from my mom's point of view. In a few years I will meet someone and want to get married and will move out leaving my mother to live alone. She probably also wants to have someone that will be there when I am no longer there. Maybe I am being selfish not wanting my mother to remarry, but I just can't help not liking the idea. I didnt sleep at all last night. I just dont feel like doing much of anything right now. I ended up not running and just talking with Mr. Teo this morning.